Unknown Suffering

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I didn't ask to be sitting here alone and useless. I remember the day I was torn out of my warm and cozy home to battle against some unknown enemy. My blood, sweat, and tears are the exact weapons I used to achieve victory. In the end, I won, an easy victory. I expected to return to where I lived; that dark, humid, but clean place. Instead, I was just abandoned here. No one and nothing came to pick me up. I'm just sitting in the same spot slowly drying into a corpse. I cannot find a way to end my misery. I can only wonder when I will be relieved of this nightmare. 

Everyday, I see a human moving in and out of this place. I do not know if he sees me or just chooses to ignore me every single time. I try to let him know of my misery, but he does not ever respond. He lives in a different world. He sits at this place everyday to learn about the world, its disorder, and how to find ways to organize them. From simplifying messy math problems to deep philosophies looking for an answer for all this disorder, there is nothing that teaches him how to create disorder. But this place is constantly becoming more and more messy. Printed documents crowd the space more and more; empty water bottles and candy wrappers are filling up this place. How is it possible for this human to create so much disorder without even learning about it? There is no reason for him to do this. I am sure the other documents and wrappers and bottles are suffering the same fate as me at the moment. Why does he ignore us? After watching him procrastinate day after day, I realized the answer is laziness. We demand an end to our suffering, but he rejects orderliness because he does not care enough to help us. I guess there is nothing we can do anymore other than to wait. Wait for the day a higher power commands this lazy human to finally create some order from this disorder. I hope I can endure this tragic fate of mine until then.

I am an used alcohol wipe, and I am waiting for the day I get pick up from the messy desk of this careless human. 



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